NAMIBIA

Baby Doll

Baby Doll

Closed my eyes
clenched my fists
catch a breath
and don't let go
stay dead
still

I'll sing a song
inside my head
to numb the freezing fear
of his body in my bed

I'll play my part
to feed his thrill
praying all the way
for the silence to stay

misleading trust
a thirst
lead by lust

hollow
tears never appear
another feeling lost

left ashamed
an undressed doll

So, dearest brother
you have torn my pride and tossed me aside

You have stolen my strength
silenced my screams
with a daily dosage of scars

was it the sin itself
or I who seduced you

placed on your shelf
I will watch them wait
for my final derail

just to learn that I am all
that can make me fail

I can feel pleasure, passion and pain

I love and hate all the same

I am mine
a life-like doll
living again.

by: Jene Nell